We are still in winter. I’m sure I moaned about this last month, but c’mon, it’s cold. Winter was mild, it should be spring now but the temperature has barely changed. At least nighttime doesn’t start at 5pm anymore.
This month I have been hearing “music” in my head more than before, still snippets of songs but it sounds clearer. My Mito symptoms have worsened, the pain from my neck, right shoulder and right arm is constant. Surely it isn’t normal to be in pain when I move my head, type, or play the PlayStation, it gets exhausting.
The first couple weeks of the month were lowkey as I saved myself for seeing Bex in France. This was my first holiday in 6 years, my first solo flight since I went deaf but Ryanair couldn’t have made it easier. The holiday was a breeze as Rup drove us around and both Rup and Bex spoke for me. It was only 5 nights but it was the longest time I have spent around people for ages but we all kept it steady and I survived.
I was meant to have 2 nights at my sister’s as I was flying into London but I cut the stop just to 1 night as I craved my own space. My body was breaking too, especially the right shoulder/arm.
As the month was coming to an end I felt the traits of depression come in, now I have no idea what I can expect from May when my brain plays this game.
OCD is a mental health condition that can impact they way somebody lives and behaves.
February felt like a long month, filled with booze, a gig in Manchester and hospital in Newcastle.
The 1975 Still.. At Their Vest Best in Manchester
It is easy to feel invisible when people don’t want to hear from you.
Tinnitus affects mental health as much as it can afffect your hearing.
Matt might not have lived that “New Year, new me” vibe for more than a few days but there was some progression.
The first year of deafness has been a rollercoaster year, full of loss, grieving and adapting for Matt.
Matt’s Mito wasn’t inherited, his mutation is rare and he doesn’t match up with the typical signs of Leigh Syndrome.